Here are the lyrics from a song that gave me strength when I was preparing for my move to Mexico. Her name is Stephanie Smith. Name of the song is I'm not afraid.
I'm not afraid (I'm not afraid)
I'm not afraid
Sorry it's over
I think it's the best thing for now
I'm taking the mem'rys
I don't want to leave them all behind
Some were good, some were bad,
Some were in between
But I gotta do whats right for me and
I'm not afraid
To walk away, let me go for the last time
Finally got it strait for the first time
I'm not afraid cuz I know he's there to meet me
So I'll be gone, I'll be gone but not alone
I hate how it happened
But it just wasn't supposed to be
Lets not talk about it
Cause always looking back won't change a thing
Leave the good, leave the bad and the in between
I'm gonna do what's right for me and
I'm not afraid
To walk away let me go for the last time
Finally got it strait for the first time
I'm not afaid cause I know he's there to meet me
So I'll be gone,
I'll be gone but not alone
It may not be easy
Cause at it's best life is still hard
But He is with me
And I am not alone
Not afraid gotta go for the last time
I got it strait for the first time
I'll be gone but not alone
Not afraid to walk away
Let me go for the last time
Finally got it strait for the first time
Not afraid cause I know he's there to meet me
So I'll be gone, I'll be gone
But I'm not afraid
To walk away let me go for the last time
Finally got it strait for the first time,
Not afaid cause I know he's there to meet me
So I'll be gone,
I'll be gone but not alone
I'll be gone but not alone
Whoa oh a oh oh
I'll be gone but not alone
I'll be gone
Be gone, be gone
Amanda,
ReplyDeleteThis song reminds me of when I said goodbye to my parents at the airport when I "moved to Mexico" (ie. flew out of the U.S. on a round trip ticket I knew I'd only use half of). I had my laptop in my arms because I had had to get it out for security to check. I waved at my parents for the last time in I didn't know how long it would be, forced a smile, hugged that laptop to my chest like a teddy bear, made my legs turn me around, and made my feet walk me to the departure gate. Step, step, step. That was all I could do. Of course, my husband was waiting for me in Mexico, but we had only a vague idea where we would live and weren't even sure if we could make enough money to survive in Mexico. I was leaving my career, my family, health care coverage, friends -- everything except my husband. Tears were pooling in my eyes and flowing down my cheeks, but I kept my head up.
I'm glad you are sharing your story on this blog. I would have loved to be able to read it, those 7 years ago when I felt so alone and threatened by the change. You are doing a huge good with this project.
Keep your head up.
Julia Taylor
Author of Mexico: The Trick is Living Here and creator of www.home-sweet-mexico.com
Hey - just curious why did you have to move to Mx? Is your hubby not elgible for the waiver?
ReplyDeleteTo help things make more sense you may want to read The Visa appointment, and Issac before Me. They are blogs about the appointment, and how he crossed the border, from Issacs view point. But to make a long story short, the guy at the visa office took his "power" to the limits. He stated that if Issac came across the boarder the way he did that he had to say he was a U.S. citizen. (this is not a true statement) But because that was the officers decision Issac is not eligible for the Waiver. One of the "worst sins" in immigration is to claim U.S. citizenship if you are not a U.S. citizen. So because this man decided Issac said something he did not say, he is not eligible.
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